Trigger warning if you have an eating disorder or any kind of mental illness this might not be for you .
I'm 22 pregnant ( my partner left when we found out) my profession is a hair and makeup Artis and I'm in the process of luring special effects makeup . My personal life well , I'm recovering from an an eating disorder, I also suffer from pdsd ,bpd ( borderline personality disorder ) did ( dissociative identity disorder)as well as self harm .and to top things off I use to have a drug addiction this is all due to trauma that happened from a young age . But despite all of that Im the strongest I have ever bean .
this is where i will post my inner feelings and emotions , sometimes good sometimes bad as i venture through recovery and find love. I have been told I give good advice so feel free to ask me anything wether it be about my journey or something you want help with .
Stay strong stay beautiful xo
Taken Christmas Eve 35+2 getting so close to meeting my littel princess
Some sugar skull makeup I created this haloween.
Here are some pics of a hair style I created
28 weeks and growing
It’s been a while since I last posted that’s probably due to the baby brain , I’m now 26 ½ weeks not to much longer to go now it’s been hard going threw this by my self but I no my angel will be worth it . And I just hope I don’t fall into my old ed or self harm habits again after Bub .
This is some of my progress through my recovery , I started on my journey. November 2014 , (I don’t have a pic as I wolds the let any one photograph me ) but the first picture is from new years 2015 you can’t tell because of my cloths but I was skin and Bone but had just started to put on some Waite the second pic is from about April/may my recovery was starting to go really well was at a steady Waite but still struggled and the third pic is from the 8th of July I may look a lot healthier but I’m 11 -½ weeks pregnant here and I don’t even look it . I’m still struggling but passing , I want to beat this I want to be happy and healthy again and not feel guilty about what goes in my body even water is an issue . But on a plus side I haven’t self harmed in about 3 months so I’m really happy about that .
I’m on the biggest journey of my life , not only have I been recovering with my eating disorder but I’m also pregnant . 11 weeks 6days . This pic was taken about a week ago , I’m not showing yet in pictures but I feel as if I am , my body is changing so much , my body is getting bigger in places that Iv always been afraid to have Waite on . Iv had to stop bingeing and purging and restricting my food it’s so hard , I still have slip ups but I have my bay to think of . I have to put on so much Waite I’m only 54.½ and a healthy Waite before pregnancy is meant to be 60 for me . But I’m trying to take this as a positive . My family think I can’t do it and we’ll the father of the baby did a runner so I’m kinda on my own . I want to prove to my self that I can do this and I won’t let this sickness hurt my baby like it has hurt me
Allways follow your dreams
Ok so I found out I was pregnant yesterday. Was the biggest shock of my life .100% unexpected no idea what im going to do theyr think im about 6-8 weeks . Mother hood here I come
Thank you!